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My grandmother died a few days ago. I spent nearly all my time with her. I'd say I spent more time with her than anyone which makes it even harder since many people don't get the privilege of spending so much time with a grandparent. I had this posted on a personal page, but I thought I might as well share it here to let my friends know what's going on.

I couldn't even go to the funeral so I sat in the car... I have social anxiety so I should have known that sitting in the car would draw more attention to myself. I just knew if I went into the building I would feel claustrophobic and stuck there with all those images of the past and all those people.

Funerals may help some, but they don't help me. I don't want to see anyone dead, No open casket. I don't want to think of death unless it's a crime scene that someone is trying to solve to help someone. I don't even want to see photos of someone close to me right after they have died. I'm tired of people saying she's in a better place and I know they mean well... but frankly... a better place is with family. Call me selfish. I wish I hadn't even gone to my best friend Ron's funeral either. I know they would understand. I knew both of them almost as well as I knew myself and I know they wouldn't want me to do anything that I wasn't comfortable with. I'm glad the family understood my stance. I was worried what they would think of me.

I'm just glad that a funeral helps some people, but I don't expect I'll ever be able to go to another one. I don't like making myself feel sad and that's what a funeral does for me. I'm perfectly fine being in denial. I like thinking of people in the living and of the good times. Forget acceptance or closure. That's how I cope.

Sorry I've been gone so long. I've missed you all on here.



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Welcome to Mac's page.

Note: Sorry, but I'm not taking requests or commissions right now because I'm already far behind with my art and writing.

If you got a llama from me and are wondering why, I'm just giving them out to people in the same groups as myself as a way to see lots of cool pages that I might have skipped over.
I am a huge fan of Star Trek TOS, Sherlock, Xena, The Simpsons as well as a few other series and I've written several fanfics on (link below) I'm mainly here to post fanfiction, fanart and photography.

A few things about me:

I'm not very social and normally avoid people like the plague, but I'm nice whenever I can be so I'm definitely not a jerk. :) I also become totally engrossed in whatever obsession that currently strikes my interest and I'm incredibly OCD most of the time. I'm not good with acronyms or text-speak, so sorry if I'm unresponsive to it. I like writing, gaming, drawing fanart and making fanvids in my free time.

Ravenclaw House STAMP by CrystalLynnblud

I have had to post my Bort fanvids to a new account on Youtube as unlisted... so here are the links if you want to view them.

Bort: I love the Way you Lie:

Bort: Getting Away with Murder:

Bort: Head Like a Hole:


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dobledragon2 Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014
Hi I'm new and wanted to tell you that I love the drawings you do of Hey Arnold! Arnold especially with Helga, indeed I hope you can share with us more of your work and if you can have some of Gerald with Phoebe, thanks for sharing your work with us
DepressedComedian Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I am in love with Stage Fright. Seriously, it's probably the best fanfiction I've ever read, and I've read a lot of fanfiction. I can't wait until you release the next chapter, and you are an insanely great writer.
MonacoMac Featured By Owner May 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, well that is awesome to hear! Thank you! I don't really know if I deserve such an honor, but I'm happy nonetheless! I will try to write the next chapter as well as I can! >_< *has a lot to live up to*
wintercoldrose Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
...after few hundred years(((( its about next chapter. heh
wintercoldrose Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No no no why I said it?)))))
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