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My grandmother died a few days ago. I spent nearly all my time with her. I'd say I spent more time with her than anyone which makes it even harder since many people don't get the privilege of spending so much time with a grandparent. I had this posted on a personal page, but I thought I might as well share it here to let my friends know what's going on.

I couldn't even go to the funeral so I sat in the car... I have social anxiety so I should have known that sitting in the car would draw more attention to myself. I just knew if I went into the building I would feel claustrophobic and stuck there with all those images of the past and all those people.

Funerals may help some, but they don't help me. I don't want to see anyone dead, No open casket. I don't want to think of death unless it's a crime scene that someone is trying to solve to help someone. I don't even want to see photos of someone close to me right after they have died. I'm tired of people saying she's in a better place and I know they mean well... but frankly... a better place is with family. Call me selfish. I wish I hadn't even gone to my best friend Ron's funeral either. I know they would understand. I knew both of them almost as well as I knew myself and I know they wouldn't want me to do anything that I wasn't comfortable with. I'm glad the family understood my stance. I was worried what they would think of me.

I'm just glad that a funeral helps some people, but I don't expect I'll ever be able to go to another one. I don't like making myself feel sad and that's what a funeral does for me. I'm perfectly fine being in denial. I like thinking of people in the living and of the good times. Forget acceptance or closure. That's how I cope.

Sorry I've been gone so long. I've missed you all on here.

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Welcome to Mac's page.

Note: Sorry, but I'm not taking requests or commissions right now because I'm already far behind with my art and writing.

If you got a llama from me and are wondering why, I'm just giving them out to people in the same groups as myself as a way to see lots of cool pages that I might have skipped over.
I am a huge fan of Star Trek TOS, Sherlock, Xena, The Simpsons as well as a few other series and I've written several fanfics on fanfiction.net. (link below) I'm mainly here to post fanfiction, fanart and photography.

A few things about me:

I'm not very social and normally avoid people like the plague, but I'm nice whenever I can be so I'm definitely not a jerk. :) I also become totally engrossed in whatever obsession that currently strikes my interest and I'm incredibly OCD most of the time. I'm not good with acronyms or text-speak, so sorry if I'm unresponsive to it. I like writing, gaming, drawing fanart and making fanvids in my free time.

Ravenclaw House STAMP by CrystalLynnblud








I have had to post my Bort fanvids to a new account on Youtube as unlisted... so here are the links if you want to view them.

Bort: I love the Way you Lie: youtu.be/EsIolMY-5rE

Bort: Getting Away with Murder: youtu.be/e0yoQUYA_WY

Bort: Head Like a Hole: youtu.be/4v4oP8WeCHs





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dobledragon2 Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014
Hi I'm new and wanted to tell you that I love the drawings you do of Hey Arnold! Arnold especially with Helga, indeed I hope you can share with us more of your work and if you can have some of Gerald with Phoebe, thanks for sharing your work with us
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DepressedComedian Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I am in love with Stage Fright. Seriously, it's probably the best fanfiction I've ever read, and I've read a lot of fanfiction. I can't wait until you release the next chapter, and you are an insanely great writer.
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MonacoMac Featured By Owner May 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, well that is awesome to hear! Thank you! I don't really know if I deserve such an honor, but I'm happy nonetheless! I will try to write the next chapter as well as I can! >_< *has a lot to live up to*
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wintercoldrose Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
...after few hundred years(((( its about next chapter. heh
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wintercoldrose Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No no no why I said it?)))))
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